CRoSSRoaDS.

Guess I have been keeping my blog alive with videos and pictures-basically implying I was too lazy to actually write anything from my head but ya here goes something I have been trying to complete for a while now, do react!

Life really seems to be on fast-forward mode these days. Got my final semester hall-ticket and had my degree photograph taken this week. And lately this seems to be becoming the year of the weddings. First my first-crush, and then my cousin sister-getting engaged and probably soon by brother too, on his way to being there. Also the fact that certain not-so-lovable people I know have been achieving things that I admit are of pretty impressive standards. Hats-off to them, my sincere CoNgRaTuLaTiOns! But the scariest part is that I am just about exactly 3 semester exams away from the end of a 3 year UG course of BA (Economics) at Loyola. And then hmm life begins- I mean really actually Begins. Work-Career-More Studying-PG, god knows what’s to lie ahead, and that means getting serious, if I am anyhow going to get half as close to building those castles I have dreamed up and spoken about, making those illusions Real and happen- achieving my dreams.

I have never really been one to be serious or plan out stuff as such but I guess I manage to survive doing what I ultimately have to when it REALLY really comes down to it at the last minute or so. And so far it hasn’t been Too regretful if ever, for me not to come out of…, or be glad for.

But right now I must admit I Am pretty afraid-.. that I am actually Scared…terrified….beyond comfort levels. And that’s Bad right?

Fact is I do have a pretty close to perfect picture of where I want to be doing what and ending up where but I doubt I am actually doing much to getting there and that’s what I am worried about. Fingers crossed-I am praying.

At the end of this I only hope to become someone everyone who knows me can be proud of, doing something in someway that serves a purpose to my life and existence on this planet. For a lot of reasons I Have to be big enough to silence the many critics I have had over the years. For even more deserving reasons I hope to bring a meaning to the inspiration I have got from so many others who I value a lot. In the process I also hope to make myself a better person than I am right now and do it all so in a right way and fair manner that I can look back on with pride and satisfaction someday. I want to make it big enough for me to give back to quite a few people something- for all their patience, tolerance, support and strength with me all through growing up. To Impress a few people.. prove my worth-show the world who Charan IS..and what he Can Do. If possible, I would also love for me to be able to make a significant contribution in the most memorable of ways to the world around me that’s given me so much and raised me to that level I dream of reaching.

Life at this CrossRoads right now seems pretty scary but at the same time it’s something I am eagerly awaiting and looking forward for to test myself and come out successful and triumphant at the end-when it will all be worth it. Hope your prayers be with me-wish me luck- believe me I will need it as much as I need u all. So hang on strong….and do bear.