Mistakes

It's really pretty surprising how all it takes for life to turn from heaven to hell in just a few seconds is because of a few mistakes. Mistakes unintentional and done in a frame of mind where it is lost. One moment you feel you have it all just right and perfect and the next moment it's all gone-shattered, battered and bruised so much that you wonder what happened and why it even existed when it shouldn't have in the first place. Or what you said, did or felt wrong. Not something so beautiful. Not for you. And me being quite the expert and messing up, does stupid things to ruin it to a level far worse than it already is- leaving it unfixable. And yet that glimmer of hope exists where miracles happen as have before in the past. Every instance this happens digs deeper into the fact that i am Cursed, or so it seems. For all my Mistakes, for all the bad things that happen to me, for all the bad luck that comes to everyone else i know, for all those stupid actions of me that go without reason or thought, for all those people i hurt or offend or insult without meaning to, for all those genuine pure intentions of good directed towards me that i fail to understand respect and respond to, for all my regrets on having lived life to date the way i have -i blame me, myself and i. When some of the most beautiful, amazing persons i know-my Gods that i would be noone without find reason or fault in my, my actions or my wrong understanding it's me whose responsible and at fault.

and the hope lives on............./.