Poem- When Do You Fall In Love

Ok I am just starting to become a writer, definitely Not a poet and all yet and ya this is not something I wrote but rather what I believe someone wrote for me, once-long back. Anyways here goes-

When do you fall in love?
Everyone said it will happen
But everyday & everyway my hope dampened

Then, one day I met you
And my world turned upside down
I knew people like you were few
Making others laugh while you act like a clown

I decided its nothing, its just a crush
But deep down , there was this hush
Making me realize I've fallen in love
As pure and beautiful as a white dove

I loved you , wanted to tell you
And I wished you felt the same
And as if right on cue
You told me love for you came

My heart leaped with joy when I heard you
It felt like a dream, a wish come true
I started to tell you how I felt
That when I'm with you, my knees melt

But I didn’t start.......

Your eyes sparkled with love
But it wasn't me you loved
Your words whispered desire
But it was her who set your heart on fire

And as you told me how she fits the part
I realized she was the key to your heart

I listened as a loving friend would
To all your praises of her
And tried as long as I could
To hold back tears that were so near
And when you finally left

I felt so alone
Afraid to face the world
Afraid to go home

Coz I felt at home with you,
I wanted to be with you
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to share every dream, old and new

And though that was not possible now
I just hope you know
That I would be there
And I would care
Because I knew the day we met
I would love you until death......

©Her.

Charming isn’t it? I believed so too.

Ash..

The greatest compliment on my blog so far that i got not through words but my good friend Ashrita said she was inspired by my blog (wonder how) and started her own for expressing her thoughts.. shes a damn sweet friend of mine .. very smart and talented anyway i have linked her under Ash.. check it out...

Congrats Sandy!

My 3rd post in three days must admit I am getting quite addicted to blogsville here, hope that’s not a bad thing. And ya today is so far being hmm-pretty eventful I would say.
Woke up the news that Sandy’s getting married. Sandy, my first crush, my biggest inspiration, who I once believed was my one true love. And miraculously, I didn’t feel even a bit upset or disturbed like I would have thought I would. Just Shocked and surprised. very surprised. But then that I thought about it I even feel pretty happy now that she’s getting exactly what she wanted, though she’s ONLY 19 (on feb.2nd 06). And hey this was always going to be coming right? Just didn’t imagine it so soon. But ya I am definitely going to speak to her and wish her the very best and good luck. Hopefully she will be happy and have a great happy life...
-c

MY Friends

Having gained confidence from the various opinions I got on my first post I decided to move right ahead to type about what is probably my most precious asset on the entire planet, invaluable to me, in every way- my friends. Of course, given the fact that I still doubt that I “can” actually write stuff that makes sense, I have to dedicate this post to them being they cared enough about me to lie that my first post is actually good- I mean every one of them whose seen it, not one negative comment or criticism (so far). Probably have friends with bad taste or ones who don’t read a lot but anyways. and Damn! But yes it felt amazing to even know that they cared enough to lie because I honestly believe that I can do much better and its definitely their support and encouragement that’s going to keep this blog going, so thanks guys-all of you!

I should know pretty much a lot about this topic having been super fortunate to have THE MOST AMAZING people on the planet as friends, in one way or the other, all through my growing-up- from childhood playmates to school classmates-from two different schools, outside, college and beyond. From evil-ex’s to secret admirers to crush’s, from random blog friends and people I met online and out of the blue (thankful) to closest family and friends I cant live without seeing or speaking to daily-I have seen and had all sort of friends from all over and miraculously even ones who have survived years and are still around lasting. I mean-come on, putting up with Me, Does Deserve Credit.

I remember writing somewhere that I am my own best friend and also my own worst enemy, when it comes to it. That I know myself better than anyone on the planet and no one can completely entirely claim to know me fully or understand me the way I think I do. But No, I realized ages back that that’s pretty false.

I have friends who know me far, far better than I do, and I ever can, who understand me even when I don’t make sense to me and most of all trust me, respect me, have faith and believe in me even when I have every reason to not so for myself. They value me enough to talk me into doing pretty unbelievable things and making sure I do it, being there, encouraging me, and supporting me in the minutest of ways. Always. Every time.

My friends are really, Really, REALLY- I-N-C-R-E-D-I-B-L-E in every way. They have put up wit my cribbing and suicidal urges, sat up all night listening, heard me cry, listened to me say the most unreasonable of things and even on some occasions- gone along with my stupid ideas and done some pretty weird things with me, for me.

You Guys – There is Absolutely NO way on the planet that I can Thank You All enough for EVERYTHING, no amount of words or typing that can pay you back for all you have done, are doing and will forever continue to do for me. And hey, you are Mine. Every one of you, for all eternity-will Always Be Mine. You Know That. Even if you decide tomorrow to leave me and hate me or despise me, even if you disown knowing me for life and are gone, or say I never existed and you never knew me. Not that any of that is ever going to happen, but if it does- you will all still be Mine. Sorry so much that you are all stuck with me for life. Come heaven or hell, am always going to be around.Never forgetting you, nor letting you forget me. And if there’s ANYTHING at all, Anytime- you know who to come to. I Promise. THANKS-for All. Love you lots.
-c

Of Blogs and My Reason

Hey all! Welcome to my very first blog entry-not counting the new year wishes, just needed something to post when I signed up for this page a while back. Anyways after eons of contemplating what I should write about, here goes-

Yesterday, a friend of mine told me he didn’t get what the whole blog process was about- why would people waste time writing or even reading something they possibly already knew-logic…facts, etc. why someone’s opinion on something would even matter to someone else and what could one possibly get out of going through the effort of writing or even reading someone’s blog site. If people he knew really had the time or inclination to sit down and do that.
-which kind of got me thinking if the whole blog process was worth it-considering it actually took me a pretty long time to sit down and type something myself, with a million questions in my head on whether I should or shouldn’t, how and what about.
But I finally decided that I owe this to the world, rather to myself to try to make sense and here I am typing my very first entry for all you poor unfortunate souls out there to read and hopefully comment on.

First of all like all serious bloggers (and believe me, I know some Very good ones), I believe a blog is an extension of a persons own self, his mind, his thinking, his belief, his ideas-an outlet for expressing his anger, his sorrow, his hurt, his joy and basically his opinion on just about any person, topic, object, place or thing under the sun- even, an interpretation of his own dreams or understanding-or perception. It’s about love, life success, ambition, Dreams, People you value, Mistakes you have learnt from your past, daily happenings, hope, faith, miracles you see happening around you and the world around us. It’s about Reason and Purpose and anything and everything one feels or experiences and wants to express, write about or comment, argue, even criticize.

Rather than writing what makes sense for others to read my blog is going to be about stuff that’s important to me, things that make sense to me-things I value, things I appreciate, things that have influenced or inspired me to getting where I want to be.

Somewhere along the way I also hope to reach out to a few certain very special people and let them know me the way I think they should have. People who mean a lot to me and people I will forever and always value a lot. And also with luck, probably try to make sense out there to someone who can relate to or even understand anything I might type, maybe even learn from my mistakes.

More so, this is going be a page for me to go back to infinite times to read and remember how I felt, what I thought and what stupid things I did and will continue doing so growing up and experiencing Life. It’s going to be about memories I look back on and remember and about lessons I learnt from me being myself. It will hopefully at some point of time let me feel proud looking back at myself, happy at doing something right or even inspired towards getting towards where I hope to get. It will include my likes, my dislikes, my preferences, my interests and my world and the many amazing people and moments in it that I am fortunate to have. Starting off, so far I feel pretty good about typing even this much and I am definitely looking forward to being a blogger. So happy reading, do bear and please do leave your comments. Thanking you,
-c

Happy New Year!

Happy 06 all! Hope this year brings you all tons of good..