Thank You-Dido.

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay,
my head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today,
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
that I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad,
it's not so bad and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life

Push the door, I'm home at last
and I'm soaking through and through
Then you hand me a towel
and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down,
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life

Apple

i SO Want one.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 21,ME! 2wice surprised!!

i had THE BEST BIRTHDAY ever.i absolutely, entirely, wholly, to-death LOVE -my family and friends. They made my 21st bday the best ever and really memorable for life. and i thank all of u very deeply for that.

the day started and progressed pretty normal with stopping in at citibank in the afternoon to drop over some papers for my new job. By evening time it was pretty surprising that my now awaited surprise party,(they r hardly a surprise anymore considering they r more of a routine for everybodys bday. every year.) didnt seem to be happening and it left me confused on what everyone was actually up to. i headed out for a bit and met up with 2 friends of mine and hung out with them for a while- all the while getting msgs frm Siddhu with excuses and reasons that only seemed to make things more obvious that sumting was being planned that was gonna happen. Anyway headed home and was thinking about where to head for dinner with the family when Sid, as promised landed up home alone. i figured ok cool mayb i had thought wrong and was well glad that i could atleast c my best friend on my 21st bday.

We spoke for a bit in my room and then headed back out to the hall only to be welcomed, to my surprise, by a couple of friends who had been waiting downstairs. It turned out quite a lot of a huge surprise as i saw the most unexpected collection of friends i had known from different places put together to celebrate my bday in my home, without me even knowing it.ya, lol- it WAS -a Surprise, and they managed to pull it off, catch me clueless and actually surprise me.Fun party, too.Due credit to be my bestest friend on the planet-Siddharth for organising and arranging it and to everybody for actually showing up.Pritish for getting the cake.We waited for another friend and then cut the delicious chocolate cake they had brought.Everyone sat and ate. chatted for a while. then headed home. just when i was left feeling pretty happy and glad and lucky for having so many special people that obviously cared so much to leave me a memorable time i least knew that there was another surprise coming. Mrinalini took the pictures.

Walked them to the gate and came back to see that the whole family was getting ready for dinner out when my little cousin Arjun suddenly turned off the lights and my anni(sister-in law) carried in another cake, this one with 21 burning candles.. and sigh yet again reminded me i was turning old. Didn't quite guess about that surprise either even with the hints that bro, dad and sid had thrown to me. So ya had that cake cut too and headed out for a nice dinner out with the family.

~on the whole, a fun day- and a hell of a way to start being 21, surrounded by most of the people who matter to me the mostest!~

//Again-a very special Thanks to Siddharth,Vijay,Adhi,Vinay,Priya,JD,Pritish,Prahl and to my mom, dad, sister-in law, and my cousin Arjun for the best surprise parties ever. Really sweet and heartening to welcome 21 knowing i got tons of people around me who give my life reason and meaning jus cause they r there and they care.//-c.

YET AGAIN,....

To All of You, from the bottom of my heart, my most sincerest and the very BIGGEST OF THANK YOU'S for everything said and done over all these years of my existance i could never have been without,

and also-

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE VERY BEST for all my tortures to come that you will be forced to endure and put up with in the very many, Many, MANY years to come thereby.

With Infinite Love
and Best Regards,
Yours Forever and Always-like it or not,
Charan.

21.Almost.

1 hr before i turn 21 and i am being plagued with calls and messages of wishes that are keeping me from getting to writing this post.YET again shows me how fortunate my life has been.

Fact is i am pretty ready to face the world and be an actual grown up adult (been still a kid-since 18 even.) Got a lot of plans and responsibilities here on and looking forward to the challenges that come my way. Lived life without too many regrets, made a lot of mistakes that i am glad for (that will never repeat).. gotten a lot stronger... learnt so many lessons.. gained so many experiences that i shall forever cherish and collected so many people around me that i shall value forever as my biggest treasure.. being glad to have God with me in so many forms and ways....

heres to me surviving 2 decades of existance on this big bad planet and moving on up to my third.. -and getting by life if not exceptionally well.. atleast okay enough to keep finding reasons to smile for....and be glad about that things happen the way they do at the time they do............
and moving on the way i ought to. looking forward to tons of luck to come my way .. and also the hardships and difficulties that i am going to be forced to put up with... in the many years to come here on. the different places i am going to be at doing different things in different ways.the torture i am going to have to cope with.. the happiness i am going to get to c and feel.. the love i am going to experience.... and all he others bad and good..

Happy HAPPY 21, to me. i couldnt Be more Ready-here i am, Bring it on.

...

... Happy Birthday to Her!-my prayers be with you always.

2004-2 yrs back, on this day i had the radio channel rj from 107.1FM call her and wish her on her air cause i know she loved that show. had yellow roses sent to her house, signed friend-hoping for forgiveness and acceptance.

2005- last year, on this date i wrote a cd of her favourite songs that her friends gave her from them, had a gift delivered by them from me which she threw away without even unwrapping.Sent her flowers too that weren't accepted cause she didnt even ever Know a "charan".

2006- Today, i managed to survive the whole day without even wishing her-messaging, mailing or calling. (so far!) She's as happy as can get with someone else. someone decent and nice who values her, treasures her and takes care of her. Shes in another place doing something she wants to do and making her life. And she is still nowhere close to taking us where i want us to be.. but yet i cannot be happier for her than i am right now.

- i guess thats the best gift i can give to make her birthday happy from me.hopefully she had a blast and wish her a gr8 happy fantastic year ahead.

Reunited.

i guess its more than obvious from my shoutbox that it was about time that my long-neglected blog needed an update and today seemed like quite a day to post about.

its been a week or so in planning and it finally happened and i can call it a success-in the sense that just about (due credit given to Orkut for getting us back in touch and Siddhu for planning and spreading the word and taking trouble with the lunch arrangements.) almost everyone who was supposed to, actually did turn up. It was quite a fun to meet up after all these years for lunch. Though there were initial fears on the turnout, quite a lot of the guys came and it was so much fun bonding and reconnecting after such a long time. The crowd basically consisted of my old VM classmates who at some point or the other-most of them being pretty much throughout, were my classmates in school. and ya it was quite an experience overall laughing and catching up, reminiscing old times and the usual pulling each others leg. Some of them i havent seen in years.

its scary to see that we all seem so grown up, almost everybody already placed in big companies, a year before they even graduate.but ya i guess i am happy for everybody and glad things worked out okay the way we would have wanted it to. the point being that when we were right there today nothing mattered-the place, the food - it just felt good that we sat on the same table and just spoke to each other so long. we headed for coffee after that while some guys split for home. and the amazing cool climate just made it all the more perfect.

the boys dont seem to have changed much either, over the years-physical appearancewise yes.. mustaches, clean shaven, unshaven faces but that apart they are still the same basic people i rememember them to be, the way i knew and liked them and they still very much are and thats pretty reassuring cause i wouldnt want them any other way cept the way i knew them and had them grow up with me. they still remain the sweet fun-loving guys they always were cept theres so much more to them now learnt over experience and education and yet the common bond between us, i am glad still exists and its nice to know that they are still close enough and just a call away.. and can be counted upon and care...

kinda made me realise that even though we are getting older and change is the only constant thing anymore, there are still certain things u love and cherish and hope to have always that not only cant but cant ever be taken away. there are people who matter who always will and whom u can count on to come together and give ur life new meaning and reason and feel glad for.make u keep smiling.

The biggest thank you guys, for showing up...... for making this a hell of a day to remember. hope we can do it again soon and keep doing it for as long as we shall live, as often as we can and next time get the others in too-everybody...!